Meow and Muah

Well.. its been a while since we wrote in this blog, as Amma was taking me and Meow on quite a different journey, which has only brought us as closer, stonger and more loving individuals. But for two days there was a lot of steam being blown out and neither could understand why we were back to flinging ourselves at each other’s throats just when things were going great.  We were trying to solve the issues in his back yard and I was looking at the little pot that I planted with Meow. When we potted it, he warned me not to pour too much water and I commented how right he was then as the mud became hard and the seeds did not sprout. Amma then came around and said,

Balance. Tending the garden can teach you a lot about Balance.

When you pour too much water it destroys the soil, too less and the plant is parched,

Too much sunlight and it dries, too less sunlight and the plant can’t produce food properly,

Too much manure is bad and too less manure creates undernourishment,

All of these have to be balanced for the plant to grow properly.

 Anger, is of 5 types.

The first is Anger that is thrown on someone else

The second is Anger that is shoved at someone else

The third is Anger that is instigated

The fourth is Anger that just happens and

The fifth is Anger that creeps up.

 Amma asked me that if my brother was to get Angry does he express it the same way to his better half as he would to me or someone else in the family. It made me realize that it definitely was not the same with every relationship. When Meow gets angry and we fight, I feel like someone is bulldozing me and when I get angry with him I just walk away as I can’t deal with heavy emotions that easily. Amma then showed me how we actually were expressing anger in a way that hurts the other the most, rather the other was attracting a beahviour that would hurt himself / herself the most. Meow ‘s greatest fear is people walking out of his life after losing many dear ones. Muah, ie. I feel completely battered and bruised in angry situations. Thus She revealed to us that the delivery of Anger does not depend upon the person who gets angry but also upon the receiver who attracts the type of delivery which would him/her the most.

 What makes us angry in the first place? Inappropriate behavior of the other. I get bugged when Meow does certain things in a particular way and vice-versa. When this anger goes unexpressed it poisons each other individually and the entire part that flows between the two.

 How do we deal with it? Blow off the steam at each other? don’t talk at all and let it build up till it finally erupts? Meow and me are so different and opposite in our thoughts, behavior, backgrounds and such that people around us scratch their heads wondering how on earth can we ever get along and laugh so much being so different. Sometimes these differences do catch up in the negative way as well. Amma says that we have an option of celebrating these differences and allows them to complement our lives.

Oh well when nothing works the best way is to fall in each other’s arms and the anger that once was there, simply dissipates into nothingness.

 Anger and all other emotions are still in the surface of the ego of the individual but not the individual per say. The moment the hands unite and the souls start speaking in silence, all else drops, identity drops, misery drops, anger and frustration drop, Meow and Muah completely drop and only a deep connection remains in the realization that there is no difference, no distance, nothing. Only love remains. Togetherness remains. Joy remains. Amma remains.

 I love you Meow

Muah