Meow, the little stubborn one for whom change is unthinkable, Amma put him on a tough task – to learn to FORGIVE, in her words a great demon for Meow to confront is Forgiveness. According to this cat, you do something wrong you will be punished, that is the only law, but never did the concept of loving kindness and forgiveness ever fit into the picture. It was like asking someone to read Mandarin when he just does not know Mandarin. This morning he was faced with the toughest of times when Muah expressed as well that she would like him to become a forgiving person. As the stubborn cat stood on the edge of his claws in defense, Amma spoke…..
forgive.,
forget.,
forsake.,
forward.,
different names .,
same root.,
for …,
for what? for whom? for what reason?
for…,
The diety of forgiveness …, is a very difficult diety to please and manifest., for some people.,
note the words.,
for some people.,
you cannot escape for …, it is integral.,
for – Give.,
for giving.,
giving something.,
how can you give something that you do not possess.,
how can you give something you have no lordship at all.,
ah ., but here is trick .,
here is the trick.,
here is how lovingly I have crafted and am a part of it all.,
to become “for” something you have to become “Of” something.,
to forgive – you have to become of forgiveness in the first place.,
forgiveness can be given even if it does not exist in the first place.,
it needs no stimulus., it needs no wrong doing.,
for surface laughter., you need something funny., for deeper laughter ., you need joy.,
for sorrow, you need anguisn.,
for anger., you need to become a victim or feel for a victim
for forgiveness you DO NOT NEED to have a wrong doing,
forgiveness is for-giving .,
forgive and forget.,
witten every where ., chanted mindelssly.,
but have any of you ever contemplated the meaning?
ForGive – For-Giving?
ForGet – For-Getting?
Give., and Let Go .,
and that is the most dangerous thing.,
letting go .,
Surrender is letting go.,
the deepest letting go .,
Imagine this poor chap ., on the topmost rung of the diving platform., at the head of the pool., over the deep end.,
imagine what he would feel.,
“How can i jump ., i am scared”
“What am i scared., i know to swim”
“there is a life guard”
“the water is deep enough”
“but what if i do not do it right”
“what if i get hurt’
“what if”
“what if”
“what if”
if .,
and of..,
one letter difference.,
complete chage.
Forgive and Forget
when you take the plunge., you forget about the diving board.,
you forget the water.,
you forget the lifeguard.,
you forget the pain
you forget the fear.,
you just become the diver.,
you become the process.,
can you become aware of yourself in a sneeze?
no ., you just sneeze.,
no one can think during a sneeze.,
you become it.,
during diving you are just the process of diving.,
that is all .,
and that is what meditation is all about .,
you become immersed in the awareness of the task at hand.,
frightining for some .,
thrilling for the other.,
and the beauty is .,
both are the same person.,
Going to a railway platform in the middle of the night., is a frightining thought (Meow once accompanied Muah, for safety, to catch a 12 a.m train) .,
and for the same person it can trigger off deep meditative tendencies (Meow said as we were sitting on the platform bench that it felt like a great place to meditate)., at another time.,
what changed.,
the platform is there.,
the timinig is similar.,
what changed?
the person
forget ., for give.,
here try this instead.,
forget ., for give.,
forget all the fear.,
then forgive.,
jump.,
fear will give you wings ????
absolutely not
it will make you realize your wings.,
this is for the person who is afraid to jump ., but has wings.,
it is not the person who is yet sprouting wings.,
fear is not the answer ., but in some cases ., feel the fear and do it anyway.,
people with lot of inner courage ., not yet manifested ., are very fearful.,
and people with screaming loads of fear and pain seek the thrill that comes with courage.,
dont scratch your head
this is for someother time.,
lets get back to forgiveness
there is unfortunately no standardized steps in forgiveness.,
and yet ., it is all the same.,
either loose the fear ., and forgive.,
or forgive and loose the fear.,
to become for-giving ., you have to be “of” it
you have to be giving.,
then there would be some very smart people ., or some incredably pained individuals., who would say
i gave so much ., so much ., i have nothing to give,
what is the point of giving.,
why give?
that is where you need something called.,
“Viveka”
intellect to identify who deserved your help and who would not identify the true essence of what is given.,
a bottle of wine to some one who relishes alcholol is great.,
not so for a teetotaller.,
Give., be giving
but realize to whom are you giving., can they indentify their good fortune.,
if they cant., do it silently for them ., without letting them know.,
but you are also much better off to give to those who deserve.,
blessed are the meek ., for they will inherit the earth .,
it just means., that they are worthy to receive the world and its treasures.,
but here is the caveat..,
are they wanting to receive????
so give ., and in giving to the right people ., the right thing., you become forgiving.,
forgive and loose the fear.,
or loose the fear and forgive.,
this second statement is vitally different in its treatment of the indiviidual.,
note the change of words.,
treatment.,
yes ., in this case treatment is essential.,
healing is essentail.,
rest is essential.,
you need to relax into your very being.,
you need to loosen your grip .,
you need to stop being so heavy on yourself.,
the best wa.,
way.,
the best way
the best way.,
the best way.,
celebrate …,
easiest way.,
listen to devotional singing., or music that moves you., which does not discuss worldly things ., but something higher.,
the quickest way.,
pranayama .,
the naughtiest way.,
?????
laughter .,
not born out of irony.,
but of ouf spontanierty.,
cannot laugh?? dont feel like it?
see pictures of other peopel laughing.,
record the sounds of laughter.,
best way – celebrate
easiest way – devotional singing
quickest way – pranayama
naugtiest way – laughter.,
There is a way., will to follow it.,
where there is a will there is a way., true.,
truer still ..,
there are always ways., you need the will to follow it.,
either forgive and forget.,
or forget your fears and forgive.,
forgiveness requires detachment
detachment
Kali ., is all anger and destruction ., out with the old ways ., to make space for the new.,
that is why it is a most most terrifiying form ., to some people.,
for .,
they see the old ignorance burned and butchered.,
for some it is a most sublime and beautiful form .,
why?
because it feels at home., safe., welcoming and familiar.,
because the space for the old ignorant ways depart.,
Child .,
it takes so much of compassion to manifest such a terrible form .,
it is not a paradox.,
sometimes you need to fast ., and in the heat of the fast., you detoxify .,
you are not depriving the stomach of food.,
you are allowing for the accumulated waste matter to be purged from your system ., so it can be recycled .,
in forms of Mother there is nothing but compassion., every feeling is there.,
Anger.,
Beauty.,
Regality.,
Innocence..,
Aged Maturity.,
Rajas.,
Thamas.,
Swattwa.,
Prosperity.,
Action.,
Knowldege.,
however in the form of Krishna.,
Playful Detachment.,
both words are very important.,
Playful Detachment.,
and forgiveness needs some detachment.,
detachment from what?
from your emotions, anger., sense of injustice., for there is always justice in injustice.,
krishna is a form of playful detachment.,
Seedy minds such for sexual meanings in Krishna’s Life
People with inner conflict ., seek to find conflicting statements in Krishna’s Life.,
why?
Krishna loves to Play
he loves to play and see how everyone reacts.,
with the attempt that awareness happens.,
sometimes you realize something in its very apparentness
somethings you realize only in contrast., in paradox.,
those who give speeaches to hundreds may not know how to talk one on one., when you see that., you realize the paradox of it all ., a new awarness dawns.,
those who can talk one on one., are petrified to talk to hundreds.,
and both can be the same person at different times too .,
Krishna ., loves ., loves to shock you with paradoxes .,
Rama’s Weapon of choice was the Bow and Arrow.,
Resolve and Focus.,
Narasimha used his claws., direct and tearing., crude ., but direct.,
Krishna., where can you pin him down with only one.,
He danced on the head of Kalinga., Dancing to subdue a snake???
He Killed Putna by constantly suckling her dry.,
He killed other deamons with his bare hands.,
Others by his famed flaming discus.,
others by a mere glance.,
so sometimes you need Krishna ., a little bit., for playful detachment.,
to jump from the board and into the pool.,
like Krishna Jumping into the Lake .,
but Jump with awareness.,
do not jump with abandon.,
jump with awareness.,
Krishna knew that Kalinga was inhabiting the waters.,
he was aware of it before he plunhged
Many times children ., jump ., with abondan ., only to be poisoned.,
I have given you this world., to become aware and jump in the murky waters of the world and mind to come out successful and joyous
dancing on Kalingas head.,
not to jump with abondan .,
abandon is not concious.,
detachment is concious.,
playful detachment is victory.,
listen to krishna ., when you are in a weak mind.,
or take the vigour of Kali ..,
there are many ways., you need the will .,
where there is a will there is a way.,
more importantly.,
there is a way ., where is the will??